The combination of health and fitness, self-care, and a little bit of makeup every day, resulted in my discovery of my confidence again. And that lead to my decision to enter for Mrs. South Africa 2019.
We are our own worst enemy as women. We hate ourselves and we hate other women who are more beautiful, more successful and more confident than us. We compare ourselves with other women, and especially the ones in the magazines.
I was just that. A woman who compares herself, her life, her body and everything else with the women in the magazines. I have lost myself somewhere along the way. I have lost me.
I found myself right at the bottom of the downward spiral. I did not like what I see in the mirror, but worse, I did not like the stories I told myself in my head. I did not like the negative talk and the jealous and envious attitude I started to develop. I was becoming an ugly person and I have nobody to blame for it but myself.
I decided that things need to change!
I did it for ME…
I decided to start taking care of myself. I started to exercise again which is the best medicine for my body and mind. I have decided to start to think positive thoughts and speak positive words. I started to follow models and celebrities as encouragement and motivation for myself.
I had to discover the real me again. I booked a professional photo shoot… The best thing I did for ME. The photographer said to me which made me realize… “the models and celebrities in the magazines only look amazing because they have good makeup artists and good photographers”.
That day, I discovered my true beauty. I felt like a cover model. And I have beautiful photos to look at to see just that.
So, my 2019 Mrs. South Africa journey is something I want to do for me. And also, a journey which I can use to motivate other women to discover their true beauty. The real you.
Yes, there is always going to be someone who is more beautiful, more successful and more confident than I am. But that does not have to define who I am. In fact, it is my inspiration and my motivation to be a better me.